Starting over (again)
hi, assalamualaikum. its me again. im starting over, again. because why not.
tbh, im tired of depression and being depressed. all my friends succeeding in their life (or looked like it) and i. want. that. so bad. so, i think, writing a diary will help. maybe. but whatevs. no one read it anyway.
ill try to post the progress, telling you guys my story or anything that could take my mind of being depressed and gave zero f about it, at any chance i get. hopefully everyday. gosh, i shouldve done that years ago you know, not caring. i should careless about others and start taking care of myself, like i should, and write then published it. not worrying that no one probably read it. but whatevs.
ive been meaning to start over like million years ago. every time i stopped writing, of course i wanted to start again. its just that i get distracted real easy, and then i sorta forgot about it and i ended up not doing it. like always. and that folks, has made me and my life like this. and i dont want to do it anymore. im so sick of it but someway somehow i ended up being depressed over and over again. its like this endless cycle of sadness, hopelessness and nothingness and many more. i want to break that cycle. i want to get out of this damned cycle. so here i am. i hope i could pull this through ;).
i have to thank anna akana, because of her awesome videos on youtube, i have a courage to write again. she went through what im facing right now, so, if she could succeed and so could i. my friends' success made me do it as well. i am so jealous of their success. they inspire me to start over, to begin again. i was planning on making videos on youtube but sadly i dont have a camera or an iphone. so, a blog would be suffice i suppose.
and here we go. enjoy. or dont. just do whatever you like; because you only live once and life can suck.
love,
prat
tbh, im tired of depression and being depressed. all my friends succeeding in their life (or looked like it) and i. want. that. so bad. so, i think, writing a diary will help. maybe. but whatevs. no one read it anyway.
ill try to post the progress, telling you guys my story or anything that could take my mind of being depressed and gave zero f about it, at any chance i get. hopefully everyday. gosh, i shouldve done that years ago you know, not caring. i should careless about others and start taking care of myself, like i should, and write then published it. not worrying that no one probably read it. but whatevs.
ive been meaning to start over like million years ago. every time i stopped writing, of course i wanted to start again. its just that i get distracted real easy, and then i sorta forgot about it and i ended up not doing it. like always. and that folks, has made me and my life like this. and i dont want to do it anymore. im so sick of it but someway somehow i ended up being depressed over and over again. its like this endless cycle of sadness, hopelessness and nothingness and many more. i want to break that cycle. i want to get out of this damned cycle. so here i am. i hope i could pull this through ;).
i have to thank anna akana, because of her awesome videos on youtube, i have a courage to write again. she went through what im facing right now, so, if she could succeed and so could i. my friends' success made me do it as well. i am so jealous of their success. they inspire me to start over, to begin again. i was planning on making videos on youtube but sadly i dont have a camera or an iphone. so, a blog would be suffice i suppose.
and here we go. enjoy. or dont. just do whatever you like; because you only live once and life can suck.
love,
prat
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